hope and happinesss!!!!!!

Someone once told me that all I had to do was find the light and I could see once I found it though it had no batteries into existance the mind goes hearing voisces on the side and a a guy my sis. I´m back to the brain to explain where this voice may be not here but there who care and they still speack am I weak or meak or should I cry or lie about this mess the black lady says don´t rest the whit lady scream and the guy complys how could I lie about my life marla speacks white guy steal seems to reak and black guy is way deep. Who knows whaere it allc omes from. And my mindleaves again or comes back I ahve these eposoides of anime and I can´t watch thembecause of the voices where sdo they come from my soul leaves. And I didn´t know it so why am I still here ai thought I just prayed but I didn´t is there some new opagan religion of thought that I am missing??? Or am I just wishing for peace hold on folks I just slipped into my 2nd consiousss I am on the way. There is so much to life!!!! I´ll stop there and the mind is still free maning I´m in a fight and still writing???